i am a real

economist now! no shit, that's what my designation now reads. i never did think i would end up on this path 4 years ago, when i took economics. if you ask me now, i never did know what compelled me to not take up the law offer and opt for economics. (there's lingering regret when i get depressed sometimes... but not much, i guess)

the road was long. rocky. hard. at time i felt like i was going nowhere. i knew crap about finance, which was what nearly every self-respecting econs student was headed towards. i chose a law major. i took a double degree in accountancy and gave up after two years, wasting valuable time and of course seeing my gpa plummet. i should have taken more econs coursework. i ended up doing a senior thesis even though i was totally clueless about crunching numbers. i felt like an idiot when i went for thesis class sessions, simply because i had no clue what everyone was talking (econ geek speak i say).

and i finally ended up an economist. wow. i sometimes go bonkers trying to figure out how on earth i managed to do that and i realise it's all God's timing and grace.

my own road to Emmaus was tough. hard. but when looking back, i see God's leading. Even though a new road is now presented, God is there to lead me. All the way.

They asked each other, "Were not our hearts burning within us while he talked with us on the road and opened the Scriptures to us?"

i told you

stayed at home all day and ended up playing... the sims 2. how loser is that. but there is a certain fascination with being able to control the lives of others- the relish of being a god. translated to real life, it's simply a reflection of the manipulation, scheming, lies and all negative things that people do to have a hold over others.

how wonderfully bleak life is.

it's so easy to look at that spot of black in the middle of a white canvas. we notice it simply because it stands out and we take for granted that white space that surrounds it. the good that surrounds the bad. for one bad thing that we experience, many other good things have happened to us. no? i would like to think so.

leaving on a jet plane has been playing on loop in my head. finally. away.

I told you i was never coming back. Or maybe, you were the one who told me that first.

a bit of

diy pedicure and manicure had my feet and fingers looking considerably hip. Coolness.

training was fun today. i feel like i am regressing though, unfortunately. downhill. oh well. match on saturday was bad. ineffective, zero, FAIL, no one to take it for me (haha). it's so easy to lose focus, but that's sports for you. easy to stop, super hard to start again.

printed out maps upon maps for the tokiiiiiooooooo adventure! YES! like finally. mr cheng is already on his THIRD grad trip and i am like what? stuck on the first one.the difference between rich and poor.

seems like the land of the rising sun (i somehow hear that stupid ninja warrior intro playing whenever i say this... from the land of the rising sun, many are called, few are chosen... ninja warrior) has hydrangeas now! i heart hydrangeas... they always look very pretty, but bloody expensive flowers they are. should be fun. definitely visiting the rilakkuma store to pick up stuff for my lovely floorball peeps who adore rilakkuma together with me. YAY.

can't WAIT. whoo hooo!!!!

BANZAI! watashi wa natsume ni tokyo ni ikimasu!!

i miss you

to my dear friend. a smiley face. that's not enough for me. why am i putting smiley faces when all i really want is to throttle you and ask wtf you have been all this while.

but then again, that's life. people change. priorities shift. and suddenly, the people who matter most don't seem to matter much. those whom you thought cared, disappear without a sound.

i close my eyes, and breathe.

:)

none-stop

lunch/breakfast calls have made me pretty tired out for a week where i thought i was supposed to be relaxing. *grumbles* visited jones TWICE @ mandarin gallery, no thanks to wild honey which is perpetually crowded. Would die to try ippudo, just that i am headed to toookiiiiiooooo soon which is like the land of heavenly ramen.

tired. i am getting damn old.

i caught SATC 2 with the twins, eunice and their friend lauren. having zero expectations of the movie, i was amused pretty well by it. entertained, if you would say. sexual references and all aside, the dialogue was pretty well-done. a bit cliche at times, but definitely chick flick 100%. although i must say the guys in the show most of whom are well into their forties are absolutely dishy. nice.

there was one really funny line which went 'he can be lawrence of my labia!' (sorry to lawrence of arabia). still cracks me up everytime i think of it.

and that marks the end of a week.

ever since

i've discovered a pretty painless way of uploading photos via facebook mobile, i seem to want to take more photos of random things. i took a picture of my miss marc pochette which i bought recently on a whim with the title itotallydon'tunderstandwhyigotthis.

couple of friends back in town. yay. b'fast at jones @ mandarin gallery. yay to no more dempsey's (which is a bitch to get to without the car). saving money for japan. headache. letter from government to announce that i have more money come july. i want it now. trying to study japanese to no avail. doom. planning japan trip. yucks. training on thursday. oh no. lovely song heard at hmv. hmmm.

short snippet of what i get to do everyday.