This is it.

And I think this is the end. This blog has run its course.

I always look back on the posts with fondness, laughing secretly at the cryptic messages I posted on it. A day older, yet never wiser.

Youth is fleeting. Treasure everyday.

tolerance

is a sign of maturity. at least that was what i gleamed from the most recent bsf lesson.

hello. it's been a while.

the year is coming to an end. next week, we enter the fourth quarter- the last lap of 2012. within these 9 months, friendships have been forged and reinforced. work has progressed at an alarming rate, something which i actually liked.

and i took a big step in life.

it was scary. almost unrealistic. a friend said "it calls for a reality check." it still didn't quite hit me, until i signed on the dotted line. and turned to him.

in that split second, fear overtook me. was i ready for this? to commit my life (and monies) with someone else? a stranger, turned friend, turned best friend, turned boyfriend turned... soulmate?

he smiled.

and then the world started spinning again. i breathed.

never let me go.

and there is a little

jump in her step when she sees him

life has been ok. thank God. as the new year begins, may i seek His direction everytime and remember that everything I do, i do for His glory.

Wise words to begin the year.

i will be brave

i will not let anything take away

i have died everyday waiting for you

and all along i believed i would find you

i have loved you for a thousand years

i will love you for a thousand more

oui!

I AM FINALLY GOING TO FRANCE!!!!!!!!!

stoked.

decemeber is turning to be a very exciting month. kl. paris. can hardly wait.

was listening to katy perry's 'the one that got away'. i hope i never have to say those words. insecurity at its best.

lazy saturday

mornings are always the best for reflection. and doing nonsense you won't normally do amidst the mundane drudgery.

this blog has been with me for a very long time- 3 years. in the fickle cyberworld we live in, that counts for plenty.

i deleted a lot of posts in between... what a whirlwind. those memories have faded. a dream within a dream.

i read through the previous posts of 2010-i realised what a year it had been. dealing with the breakup before cny and vday (sometimes, i still blame him) and the possibility of being lonely at work since i can hardly bother to talk to new ppl.

and what a whirlwind it turned into.

and now, 2011 is ending. so much has changed, yet so little. two sides to the coin i guess.

it's time for breakfast. c is cooking breakfast for me. hearing his sleepy voice go 'whaaat. it's 10 already...' makes me inexplicably happy for some reason.

what a lazy day.

these days

my prayer every night goes 'Dear God, thank you for allowing me to have a good day at work. Grant me a good night's rest and that that you will make it a good day tomorrow too. Amen."

i wonder if i am selfish. Is it asking God to allow me to trudge along or to just generally make sure I am ok?

i can't think about that. too tired.

and i realise why people say it's so hard to date when you are working. it's true. so true. i rather veg out on my bed, playing with my iphone (damn the pvz game), and not reply to whatsapps and texts.

which is why sometimes, i cannot blame c for not texting me.

maybe we're just two very lazy individuals. woe the humanity.